Hot Stuff

This is me at the moment. Not wanting to disappoint those of you who don't know me and are currently conjuring up images of supermodels and the like. I’m less of the Kylie Jenner more of the Kathy Burke. (To be honest I love Kathy Burke so I’d rather be her anytime) but I digress. The hot stuff reference - as a result of my recent cancer diagnosis  I have had to stop taking my hrt. It hasn’t been too bad so far and to be honest I’ve had a few other things going on to distract me. Then the hot flushes started. The best way I can think of to describe it is imagine you are a flask being filled up with boiling water. Then think about the heat of the water rising from the base, so your feet, to the rim, your head. You literally feel like steam is going to come out of your ears. You can see the colour rising along with the heat too. Even the back of your hair gets wet from the sweat, you have to strip off, fan yourself and then it passes. It really is the most bizarre thing. If you have ever been really embarrassed and blushed - think of that and triple it in intensity and you are about there. When you get them in bed it’s especially frustrating. I’m having to sleep in a post op support bra currently so complete stripping off isn’t possible but I do pity my poor hubby. They do say love is blind and at the moment it needs to be.
I am covered in bruises, have stitches and most annoyingly look like I work down a mine because the sticky stuff from my wound dressings is black. Add that to a peculiarly weird shaped and swollen boob, butchered armpit, my makeshift haircut, the fact I can’t wear deodorant and  a range of comfies and I’m looking (and smelling) good! 😂
I do though, have fabulous nails. A very kind friend and mobile nail technician popped in and gave me some gorgeous sparkly nails. It’s the little things that make you feel better. I have also been overwhelmed by the cards, flowers, gifts and messages of support I have received from friends, colleagues and family. I am humbled and despite of everything I’ve whinged about above, blessed.